Another thing to rumble, in approximately 5 mths i'll be off to Boston. This is one of the events I dreaded the most for the Yr of 2010:( I envied my friends who are so excited about the idea, because I wish I can be like them too.

Being so far away for 5 weeks is not appealing to me at all. I heard so much about the shopping craze and the fresh humongous red lobsters, but I'm still not very hype about the whole thing.

I worry about the expenses, how I am going to get through the weeks washing all the clothing on my own, preparation of breakfast in the morning (i knw it is going to be a rush over there!), jet lag, the long hours of flight (will it get hijacked? Choi), What if I've constipation and no one can help me? etc etc... I'm still quite dependent on my mom for all the above:( but I want to believe I will survive through. So I wonder what would my feelings be on the day before I leave? Will it change for the better or worse? The current mood is sianness, hopefully till then it will be something more positive.

I will miss mum, dad, ming, weiwei and simon

I don't want to go.