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Sunday, March 28, 2010

11:50 AM

So 4 days ago, marked the 4th year together with retardedly (haha is there such a word?) cute Simon. But we spend the day separately as usual. The first year, I was too shy to bring the matter up, the second year, I was brave enough to bring it up but got brushed off because he didn't see a point in celebrating THIS DAY together, for the third year, I got mad inside because I think he wasn't sensitive enough to remember I want him to celebrate this day with me and at last the fourth year, I gave up haha, not in a bad way, I think it's alright to as long as every other day we are happy and peaceful with one another. Maybe he is just not into this stuff? nvm...

But still he is the cause for so much blessings in my life. Our .... is no sugary pink cupcakes, but it's... :)

&the beauty.

5:05 PM

You know, I don't look forward to school, every corner I turn to I will see people mugging for school assignments with eyes transfixed intensely on to laptop screens. School makes me feel miserable because I am wondering alot of times if I am doing what is right and how I will eventually turn out after 2 years. I am not liking what I am doing right now, but I know I got to try my best. That's what makes it a pain. Sometimes I wish I had been braver in making choices, maybe I will not be feeling this way right now.

&the beauty.

12:44 AM

Finally, after 4years, I can handle your phone call better and I'm loving it:)

There was a lot of hiding in the toilet , underneath the blanket and unnatural whispering in answering Simon's call previously, but I am so surprise that I could pick up his call so effortlessly today, a great sense of achievement for me!

&the beauty.

10:48 PM

I feel like a mean creature lately, and I hate myself for feeling this way. Urgh. There are times when I expected so much out of a person that I totally forgot to treat the person in a humane way. I feel too ashamed to elaborate further, so I hope this nasty feeling will fate away and leave me in peace. On the other hand, I hate to leave my thoughts hanging because it makes me feel really unsecure. This is so incomplete.

&the beauty.

9:28 PM

Right now there're alot of negative charges in my brain, they affect mood badly. They make me feel deprived and miserable.

&the beauty.

8:30 AM

The wave of sianess keeps coming. It is really hard to focus and be on task, I wonder what is causing all these. All I am doing now is to sigh.

I learnt 2 things today, according to Tyra Banks Show, there are women born with 2 uterus, so in layman terms, it means 2 verjayjay (that's what Tyra said too), and children as young as 6 can be a transgender, these kids sure know what they are talking about, they believe an error had gone wrong in God's plan. Oh my, I was shocked upon hearing that because they look really young and fragile but they could tell something was not right about them and corrections needed to be made.

I think I am addicted to online shopping, my mind is filled with the pieces I think I should get, and I am coming up with reasons why I should get them.

&the beauty.

8:43 PM

I absolutely adore them:)

Goo Hye Sun- She makes me want to go all natural, but I know I will look hideous. She is sooooo beautiful, I love everything on her face! I know I should not be doing this, but I always wanted a pair of eyes like hers, so huge and mesmerising. I started using all sorts of tricks to achieve the double eye lids effect years ago, but stopped doing that now because I didn't want to keep experiencing the disappointment of seeing the pretty double eye lids disappearing after removing the eye glue or tapes.

Chae Rim- I will never forget her, she is my very first favourite Korean actress and I am still in love with her!

Song Hye Gyo- She makes me believe Laneige products are miracles. But sometimes I really do wonder how do these people achieve the dewy effect on their skin? Babies have perfect skins but they do not have glowing or dewy skins, they have matte looking skin:)

Jung Ryeo Won- I feel really unhealthy when I look at her, it has been ages since I exercise and I can see fats starting to layer up. That is how bad the situation is. Sometimes I wish I am the really skinny type who wants to grow fat but practically can't at all in this way I feel I can better control my diet.

&the beauty.

Diana. 21 years old. Wheelock College Singapore. Short and petite. Pamper my skin best. Omnivoure but stay herbivore on Fridays. Catch me on ROSE Online!. Worship Makeup guru Michelle Phan and Artiste, Jung Ryeo Won.

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